a boring day

When you got fed-up with one thing, you will get fed-up with everything else surrounding you. That is what happen to me today. Yesterday's post was about waiting for miracle to happen and it does not happen. So, it affect my mood today - the whole day. I was being so useless wandering around the house and doing nothing productive. Useless me. Hah!

Thus, being so un-productive, I went and checked my mail box. Thank God someone did send some interesting stuff for me to check it out. I particularly attracted to one mail, where it describes my characteristics when I am in love according to my day of birth. Quite accurate though!

I am type number 4 where:
4 号恋人：每月4 日、13 日、 22 日、31 日出生者
对4号恋人来说，安全感永远是第一考量，不过，第二、第三、第四考量恐怕还是安全感。
I need security in my relationship. Badly.

4号恋人对爱情的观念很传统，会以相当认真的态度去面对和经营爱情。
Have very conservative view in love. Will be very serious while in love. (So true for me.)

要4 号恋人主动出击…嘿嘿，他们可不轻易打没有把握的仗；不过，当有人对 4号恋人主动表示好感的时候， 4号恋人往往会以最快的速度跳入陷阱。
We won't go for it if we are not sure with the results. But, when someone does a confession, we normally will fall for it, immediately. That's how each of my relationship started. (Isn't it so true?)

只不过，4 号恋人还是很坚持原则的，再怎么爱、再怎么盲目，若对方不能达到4 号恋人最基本的要求——也就是对方不能独属你一人时，4号恋人最终还是会从短暂的盲目中清醒，脱离这段没有结果的关系。
Even we fall into a relationship easily, we still stick to our principles. No matter how deep in love are we, if our partners could not fulfill our requirements, where they just can't belong to us, alone, we will be awake, and end this never-ending relationship. (Personally, I felt the same, but I still could not have the courage to do so. Why?)

4 号恋人特别需要安全感，所以也特别需要了解和掌握恋人的一切。
We need the feeling of security badly. So, we need to know everything, in and out of our partner. (Ya, I demand to know everything. No matter you're willing to tell me or not.)

4号恋人一向是看准了、了解了、做好准备了…才会付出行动；因此， 4号恋人的对象往往是从身边的朋友下手，从一般的关系开始萌生爱情的嫩芽。
We will always aim our target correctly before taking any action. Thus, we will always pick someone who is near to use, like friends, and start our relationship from there. (Why I feel that this post is describing about me?)

失恋症结点： 小心你的主观意识太强，时时要以你的意见为优先，伴侣可是会受不了的！
Most probably break up because of: too self-centered and does not accepts others opinion, and the partner could not withstand it. (I admit that I always want the other one listen to me,but I am not wrong either!)

你是哪种 4号恋人? (You are which one?)
每月4 日出生的4号恋人： 最理想的贤妻良母、好丈夫类型，生活的细节靠他准不会出错。
每月13日出生的4号恋人： 13日的恋人很讨厌落单，偏偏他们也真有本事，就是让你心甘情愿跟他东奔西走的。
每月22日出生的4号恋人： 直觉既强又准的恋人，对于他们的原则，你还是跟着照办为妙吧！
(I am born on 22nd so I will just explain this one =P)
I have very good and accurate instinct, why don't just follow my rules in everything? Well said!
每月31日出生的4号恋人： 外表规矩、内心狂放，表里落差最大的恋人，越深入了解越有挑战性！

王力宏 - 心跳

想跟我吵架 我没那么无聊
不懂得道歉 我没那么聪明
好想要回到我们的塬点
　
你又在哭泣 我给不了安慰
我又在摇头 有那么点后悔
爱情的发展已难以回头却无法往前走

但身不由己出现在胸口
两颗心能塞几个问号
爱让我们流多少眼泪

你的眼神充满美丽带走我的心跳 　
你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳
逆转时光到一开始 能不能给一秒
等着哪一天你也想起
那悬在记忆中的美好

想跟我吵架 我没那么无聊
不懂得道歉 我没那么聪明
好想要回到我们的塬点
　
但身不由己出现在胸口
两颗心能塞几个问号
爱让我们流多少眼泪

你的眼神充满美丽带走我的心跳 　
你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳
逆转时光到一开始 能不能给一秒
等着哪一天你也想起
那悬在记忆中的美好

你的眼神充满美丽带走我的心跳 　
你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳
逆转时光到一开始 能不能给一秒
等着哪一天你也想起
那悬在记忆中的美好

**Lee Hom's new song..hearts it..**

the bad day

I don't know whether today is considered as a bad day for me or not. Remember my previous post, talking about how bad is GSC? I actually made a mistake myself, where I did not activate the secure code for my card (I get to know this after I called the call center). So, I activate it, but still I could not book the movie ticket. I called them again. Skip the long story, after I called them for like 3 times, they started to ignore my call. Well, at the end I manage to get them to send a new password for me to activate it again, but not today of course.

I actually hoping that miracle will happen today. But one call turns everything to be so-not-miracle at all. Spoilt my mood, spoilt my feeling, spoilt everything. I always thought I am the onw who should be on top, compared to others, but obviously I am not. Guess I should just bear with it, or just let go.

I feel bad, for thinking about letting go, for such small things. But, think deeply, if small things can cause uncertains and dissatisfaction, what will happen if it is a big thing? I could not imagine what will happen, what will I feel, what will others feel, what will be the consequences.

I actually have gone through worst, maybe not that worst. I had started to think whether I am having depression or what. Maybe a minor one. I actually wished I have. At least I know that I am abnormal by making my bed become a sea-taste bed. I actually cried every night, without knowing the reason knowing why. Tears are flowing, but the mind is blank. But what I am sure is everything when he appears, I can't even control myself. Maybe I am already in the verge of exploding, or dropping into depression.

Now I can even play my handphone games while I am crying. I had reach the point where I can cry and do things at the same time. Went to have pizza with housemates and James today. I had been yawning ever since in the class in the evening. But, now, almost 2 am, I am still typing this blog. I wanted to sleep so much. I am so sleepy. Still, I don't want to sleep. Because, I know, I wont't drift to sleep easily. Everything will come into my mind, and I will start the depression thingy again.

I just hope that I would not have to face so many things in my life, because both my mind and my heart can't take it anymore.

laammeee system for GSC

ooh syit! I owe an apology to William. Remember that day when I was asking you why some of the features in my blog disappeared? Rupanya my blog was in the "Edit Html" mode instead of " Compose". Paiseh ==||

Okay, I'll start this post by complaining about the online ticketing, online payment, and whatever system which is related to GSC!!
1. I found out that it is very hard for me to check the showtimes as the page keep jumping here and there, no matter what I clicked. Everytime after I chose the cinema, and date, there will be "Problem Loading Page". I tried clicking on the "Next" button, after clicking back to the same page so many times, since they auto-direct me to other page (which is always a problem loading page. swt!) whenever I choose my options (s0 ma fan!!!). It works this time, but everytime when I want to reserve seats, there's nothing for me to choose, and I found out I am signed out from the system. Gosh!

2. Okay, continue from above. I signed in again. I choose the movie. Nothing for me to click to reserve. I signed out. I signed it again. Nothing. (One day I really going to give up reserving the movies) After so so so many times signing in and signing out, finally I managed to reserve, and it is fully reserved!!!!!!!!! (Imagine what I felt)

3. Fully reserved. Done. I wanted to reserve Love Matters. Evening show, fully booked. Night show, fully booked. Is it that full ? (Well, I heard from Nicole telling me that nowadays they do not allowed people to reserve tickets anymore. But I did reserve, one month back. Hmmph. )

4. So, I am getting desperate. Above actions are done on Friday night. On the Sunday, feeling desperate, I tried online payment thingy using my credit card. Guess what, there are lots of seats for me to choose!!!!! Being so excited, I continue with my transaction. And, guess what? transaction could not be done. I tried 3 times with my credit card, and 1 time with Nicole's maybank2u account. 4 times!!!!! Nothing get done.

When we got to Pavillion, after one hour from the time I do my online payment, there is only 3 rows of seats left. Which is one hour after I doing the online things? So fast? Damn their stupid system! Oh, I thought it was my card's problem, but when I was paying for my DiGi bills with my card, everything is OK!!!!!

So, it's the system which is not OK rite ??? I know, you can blame me for not booking the tickets earlier (Bleh :P) but I am still having doubts on the security of doing transactions online. Not IT savvy at all, even though being in an IT savvy college for 3 years (Blah, I am not in the IT course). Should have asked someone from my college to help to improve their systems. Maybe as a FYP project for them (It's great, rite?)

Okay, enough of everything. Next post will be the movie I watched on that day.
(Hmmph, should I sleep, or continue with my FYP ? =P)

I want to go to the CINEMA!!!!

I want to watch movies badly. I miss the cinema. The last movie I watched was The Wedding Game. I want to go to the CINEMA again!!!!! I watched Slumdog Millionaire through the laptop. That does not count =P

There are so many nice movies out there!
I want to watch The Curious Case of Benjamin Button.

I want to watch Love Matters.

I want to watch Watchmen.

I want to watch Marley and Me (the lab is so so so so so cuuuteeeee!)

I want to watch Hotel for Dogs (it is not shown in the cinema anymore. So i asked someone to download it for me =P)

Can I watch everything in one day? :)

my Friend is getting married :)

Two days back, I was with Esha in Secret Recipe (again) to have a drink or should I say to go online :P (I know one day we will ban from Secret Recipe). Then, Esha told me, Sree's going to married her 9 years of boyfriend! Back then, I was thinking, she is 23, 9 years means she had dated the guy since she was Form 2 !! My reaction was: impossible (I know I am being so mean). Esha asked, why is it impossible? It is POSSIBLE, and I am still like: no wayy, impossible (guess I don't believe in true love.wakaka). It seems like Sree's boyfriend is good-looking, and is working in Shell currently (obviously not the one who help people to pump petrol). Is there really such a perfect love? Well, the truth had knocked me. There is =) (so sweeeeeettttt!). Anyway I will congratulate Sree when the times come. You are such a lucky girl babe!

Oh, I bumped into my friend's EX boyfriend during breakfast yesterday. I hope I did not recognize the wrong person. Well, he actually don't know who am I. I am such a kepo. I wonder whether they are still together as I seen she is still sending him message through Facebook. Well, 5 years of relationship, is it that easy to end it? Anyway, I am just being kepo again. Forgive me :)

Somehow rather, everyone's love life is a mess. Friends around me are not getting happy ending as everyone had expected. But I know it ended for good. I can't say my love life is wayyy so perfect as I have my own ups and downs as well. Like what Shi Kit said: I rather to be single than to be involved in a messy relationship. Ha!

Oh! Another thing. I saw the idiot in my area. What is he doing here? I thought he is damn busy, but he can still have time to come here, nicely parked his car and God knows what is he doing. Such an idiot. Gosh.