想跟我吵架 我没那么无聊
不懂得道歉 我没那么聪明
好想要回到我们的塬点
你又在哭泣 我给不了安慰
我又在摇头 有那么点后悔
爱情的发展已难以回头却无法往前走
但身不由己出现在胸口
两颗心能塞几个问号
爱让我们流多少眼泪
你的眼神充满美丽带走我的心跳
你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳
逆转时光到一开始 能不能给一秒
等着哪一天你也想起
那悬在记忆中的美好
想跟我吵架 我没那么无聊
不懂得道歉 我没那么聪明
好想要回到我们的塬点
但身不由己出现在胸口
两颗心能塞几个问号
爱让我们流多少眼泪
你的眼神充满美丽带走我的心跳
你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳
逆转时光到一开始 能不能给一秒
等着哪一天你也想起
那悬在记忆中的美好
你的眼神充满美丽带走我的心跳
你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳
逆转时光到一开始 能不能给一秒
等着哪一天你也想起
那悬在记忆中的美好
**Lee Hom's new song..hearts it..**
Thursday, March 19, 2009
the bad day
I don't know whether today is considered as a bad day for me or not. Remember my previous post, talking about how bad is GSC? I actually made a mistake myself, where I did not activate the secure code for my card (I get to know this after I called the call center). So, I activate it, but still I could not book the movie ticket. I called them again. Skip the long story, after I called them for like 3 times, they started to ignore my call. Well, at the end I manage to get them to send a new password for me to activate it again, but not today of course.
I actually hoping that miracle will happen today. But one call turns everything to be so-not-miracle at all. Spoilt my mood, spoilt my feeling, spoilt everything. I always thought I am the onw who should be on top, compared to others, but obviously I am not. Guess I should just bear with it, or just let go.
I feel bad, for thinking about letting go, for such small things. But, think deeply, if small things can cause uncertains and dissatisfaction, what will happen if it is a big thing? I could not imagine what will happen, what will I feel, what will others feel, what will be the consequences.
I actually have gone through worst, maybe not that worst. I had started to think whether I am having depression or what. Maybe a minor one. I actually wished I have. At least I know that I am abnormal by making my bed become a sea-taste bed. I actually cried every night, without knowing the reason knowing why. Tears are flowing, but the mind is blank. But what I am sure is everything when he appears, I can't even control myself. Maybe I am already in the verge of exploding, or dropping into depression.
Now I can even play my handphone games while I am crying. I had reach the point where I can cry and do things at the same time. Went to have pizza with housemates and James today. I had been yawning ever since in the class in the evening. But, now, almost 2 am, I am still typing this blog. I wanted to sleep so much. I am so sleepy. Still, I don't want to sleep. Because, I know, I wont't drift to sleep easily. Everything will come into my mind, and I will start the depression thingy again.
I just hope that I would not have to face so many things in my life, because both my mind and my heart can't take it anymore.
I actually hoping that miracle will happen today. But one call turns everything to be so-not-miracle at all. Spoilt my mood, spoilt my feeling, spoilt everything. I always thought I am the onw who should be on top, compared to others, but obviously I am not. Guess I should just bear with it, or just let go.
I feel bad, for thinking about letting go, for such small things. But, think deeply, if small things can cause uncertains and dissatisfaction, what will happen if it is a big thing? I could not imagine what will happen, what will I feel, what will others feel, what will be the consequences.
I actually have gone through worst, maybe not that worst. I had started to think whether I am having depression or what. Maybe a minor one. I actually wished I have. At least I know that I am abnormal by making my bed become a sea-taste bed. I actually cried every night, without knowing the reason knowing why. Tears are flowing, but the mind is blank. But what I am sure is everything when he appears, I can't even control myself. Maybe I am already in the verge of exploding, or dropping into depression.
Now I can even play my handphone games while I am crying. I had reach the point where I can cry and do things at the same time. Went to have pizza with housemates and James today. I had been yawning ever since in the class in the evening. But, now, almost 2 am, I am still typing this blog. I wanted to sleep so much. I am so sleepy. Still, I don't want to sleep. Because, I know, I wont't drift to sleep easily. Everything will come into my mind, and I will start the depression thingy again.
I just hope that I would not have to face so many things in my life, because both my mind and my heart can't take it anymore.
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