It's our 4th anniversary today, 16/06/2010. Not wedding anniversary, just an anniversary that marks the time that we had been together. 4 years, not long not short. I never really feel the time pass by, as we gone through most of the days without each other by our side. Day by day, month and month, and here we are, on the 4th year of our relationship.
It's really funny to see how things happen. From a stranger to friend, from a friend to a best friend who talks about anything and everything, and from best friend become lover. Isn't it the normal route that a relationship takes to blossom? One can't be skipping the first stage (the friend stage) and straight become lovers where even love at first sight also needs to start with friends. My point is not how my relationship began, but is the direction it is taking in the future.
At the age of 24, some had become mothers, some are engaged, and some are still single. I can conclude that I am in the middle of these stages, nor single yet nor engage. Hence the main question comes into mind. Am I going to marry this guy that I had dated for 4 years? If I am not going to marry him, why must I use the remaining time of my life to be with him (not that I am going to die lah), yet if I am really going to marry him, when is that? Seriously, I really never had thought about these questions but people around me had already been asking. Why?? Why must it be so soon to get marry? I still regard myself as a young teenager!!
Being in the environment where everyone is elder than you gives me certain pressure (I'm talking about my MBA class). Being in the environment where all of your cousins around your age are getting married gives me pressure as well. Everyone had been asking, when is your turn? Wah, I have never really thought of that at all. The timing is not there yet, as both of us are still studying. I feel kinda old by typing that I am still studying at this age.
So, what does our future holds? It's still a mystery for both of us. Yes, he told me that he wanted to marry me. In my opinion, marriage does not just come in words like "I am definitely going to marry you in the future" but it needs certain action like "I am now saving for our future. Let's get married when we had enough money". Man, I feel so old typing this. Since when I had been thinking about this?
By all means, I still feel glad that we are still holding up together. I have been so accustomed to you that I don't know what will happen if you are not by my side anymore.
Thank you for keeping up with my temper,
Thank you for being the dearest part of my life,
Thank you for being there when I always wanted you to,
Thank you for cheering me up when I am not in the mood,
Thank you for holding us together when we almost fall apart,
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Thank you for loving me so much like you do now.
Happy 4th anniversary dear, may there are more anniversaries to come in the future!
Love you to the bits! Muah! <3
Lots of luv,
...BiBi...
