i am just an aVerage girl

I am just an average girl.

Had anyone heard about a song title or any song related to the title of my post? I vaguely remember there is a song which sings the heart out of an average girl. Or maybe I am just imagining it because I wanted the song to exist so much. Yeah. Pathetic for me.

I have been leading a very simple life since I am born. Simple in the sense of there is nothing like big disasters, most embarrassing situations, most awkward encounters which happened in my life. Well minus those break-ups with some guys which keeps me sad for days and a week at most. (Hope someone does not read this T_T). In other words, I am just an average girl.

I can't remember what happens in my kindergartens, so I will just skip it and start with my primary school life.

During my primary school days, I am kind of a bright girl, but not very bright compared to my classmates. I got good results, but not as good as my classmates. I wanted to be number one but always ended up be number two. I remembered once I am being boycotted for no reasons. So damn pitiful during those times where you don't have friends around you. Going to school is just like a torture to me. Lucky it ended after awhile and I am back to the gang again. Since then I am being very self-conscious with myself. I try not to speak the wrong words, I try to behave like the gang, I try to be someone they like. I guess I brought up this attitude till now. What a pathetic I am. I am just an average girl. Well, read the next story.

During my secondary school days, I get to know many great friends, but some of them leave to another school in between the school terms. I will never get along with some friends, and I know they hated me too. But I do not care. I still have my own friends, close ones and even though I do not have to be as self-conscious as previously, I still have it inside me. You just don't know what others are thinking or thinking about you. Some can just be very friendly with you and in the next minute they are gossiping about you behind your backs and they stop talking to you. I do not know the reason why, or maybe it is because of me either saying the wrong things to them or it is just a bad timing. I am an ugly girl during sec (I did not say I am pretty now, beware.) so there is no one there to pay attention on me. I was being bullied by the seniors, the first time in my whole life and I almost changed school. I took part in clubs, but I am always not the outstanding ones. I performed, I danced, I talked, but as usual I am not the best one. I am just an average girl.

And now, I am leading a college life, and I am to be considered as an adult now. My life? I am not the brightest in the class, so I won't get noticed by the lecturers. I am not the laziest in the class so I won't be noticed by lecturers. I am not the most outspoken one in class so I won't be noticed by lecturers. All this changed when I attended my Malaysian and Moral studies class with my dearest Mr Warren. I accidentally found out that he named my class as 'Denise's class'. At that time, I was so proud, the feeling of being in front of everybody feels so good. But that only last for the semester. When the class ends, my feeling ends too. Friends? I have, even though not many but is not few also. But, the attention will always never be on me. I am just a follower, or the someone who will be call just because of another someone is going. So so so pathetic. When I knew their true colors, I stop hanging out with them. Well, as if they care. I do not want to always 'follow the majority', I wanted to make my own decisions as well. But i dare not to. Because I afraid I will make someone pissed off because of that, and I do not want that to happen. Why am I so stupid, putting my own life on behalf of others? Like one of my friend always quote herself 'I am just the grass at the roadside'. Pathetic but true. Who am I to demand so much. I did not say that I do not enjoy my college life, I enjoyed it, but not to the fullest. I wanted something different. Something different from my life. I am just an average girl.

Till recently I found out something which really pissed me off, I get so fed up with these persons, I start ignoring them. Do 'you' remember I was telling you that I am having depression? All sorts of things came into my mind. It is either facts or something which I am imagining. This will happen when you become too self-conscious. When will I become my real self? I only become myself in front of few people. you and you and 'you'. Hope you know who you are =)

Well well well, enough of "I am just an average girl". Got to say bye bye now..

p/s: I wanted to go CNY shopping badly! William please remember your promise. And I wanted to watch BOLT too! Who want to go with me? :(

p/p/s: Due to great demands, I will update my blog frequently..buuahahahah *winks*

the Japanese lady in my block

Before I know that she was a Japanese lady, I thought that she is a Chinese lady married to a Malay, because her kids were talking in Bahasa Melayu with her (why I said Malay because the skin tone for her kids are dark).
It is when aYee told me that she is a Japanese lady and then only I realized that she is very fair and has small eyes and always wearing a sarong (for me it looks like a kind of sarong-lah). I always have the chance to bump on her in the lift in the afternoon when she picks up the kids from school.
Today, I met her again, together with her primary-school son and small cute daughter toting from behind eating something. Her son was speaking to her in fluent Malay plus English while the daughter is busy eating her food. When she opened her mouth and talked to her mom, that is where I got shocked! She was speaking in Japanese - fluently like how I speak my Mandarin. Oh gosh, she is just so so cute in her little blue dress, long wavy hair and fair skin complexion like her mother. How I wished I can speak in Japanese as fluent as her! I think she is not even enrolled in kindergarten yet.
Should I marry a Japanese guy to get such a cute kid? Hmm..

p/s: she is really, very, very the cute!!

the BORE-DOOM

Today, I am bored to death. Maybe because Nic is not at home with me. Normally around this hour both of us will be in the hall become typing monster. Now, Nic is celebrating her freedom with her friends and I am alone at home. Sob..Sob..No motivation to do work. So basically the whole day I am Alt-Tab-ing from my Word document and Facebook. So lame. Got nothing else to do than Facebook. Just can't help it.

What is so nice with Facebook? Recently I added (not me added, is 'someone' added it for me) 2 applications, Fish Wrangler and 义气仔女Online. Both of this application needs constant visit in order to upgrade the levels. Like Fish Wrangler, I need to go fishing every 15 minutes. As for the 义气仔女Online, I need to bank in my 'protection money' every hour to prevent others from stealing it. I can get so addicted with this 2 applications until I need to close the whole Facebook to prevent me from playing it.

Oh ya, this evening I also cleaned off the remaining of colors on my toes and apply it with a new coat. Now it looks so pinky! Shinier, brighter and nicer.

Now, it is sharp 11 pm. I need to go 义气仔女Online again to keep my money. Sigh. This is how i got through my whole day. Well, at least biu gor is around in MSN so I can express my boredom to him and he sent me a youtube video to entertain me (a practical entertainment). What is not practical? He asked me to off all the lights in the house and pretend as ghost. I said I am scared. Then he asked me to take out all my clothes, Nic clothes and Boon clothes and tie it, drop it to balcony and ask me to climb down. I said it's raining. He asked me to wear raincoat T_T

Well, here is the video:



Thanks biu gor ;)

Anyways other than biu gor there is someone else who is disturbing me as well. Keep asking me to treat him yumcha this weekend, if not he will teach my hy bad things. Teach la! Teach la! See I am more evil or you are more evil, or should I should I say, see hy will listen to who.. Mwuahaha..

12 minutes gone, and I still can't figure out what I am supposed to do now. Think I should get back to my munching Pringles business. Full-lah....

I am bored! I am bored! I am bored! I am bored to death. Someone please save me! Bla..bla..bla..bla..pathetic T_T

a Birthday to Celebrate

Ahh..the important day is coming. 14th of October. Someone's birthday..

These questions are coming into the mind now:

ღ How to celebrate?
ღ Where to celebrate? Home? Dine outside?
ღ What gift should I buy?? bag? mp3? clothes?
ღ What cake should I buy?? blueberry? cheesecake? Secret Recipe?

Ahh..so many questions, and I need solutions for all.

So lazy to think about it..

Nah..I'll think about it later~

The Old Man

The old man complaint about our attendance to the admin today. So, some of us are asked to see the admin manager to know what is happening. Before going into the room, I am very pissed off why I am the one being called, and not the others. I get to know that my attendance is just 82 % overall. I can consider myself lucky, because it is still above the average. I am still at the safe side.
But when he showed me the whole list, I saw one module stated that my attendance is only 69 %. At first I did not think anything, till my classmate asked me why is it so low. I am worried so I went to check back again, and the admin manager told me that it is 77 % for that subject. My God!
I don't know whether its the lecturer did not update the attendance, or any other reasons. Because I only absent for 4 classes. 4 classes make my attendance become 77 % ?!?! What I could not believe that my friends which skip the same amount of classes with me, has higher percentage of attendance than me (sorry for being selfish here, that is what is happening now).
Anyways, I hope that for the coming 3 weeks, I can compensate back my attendances, because I still have 10 more classes to go. *fingers crossed*

p/s: I just could not understand that, 4 classes can turn my attendance to below 80 %. What is going happen to other classmates which did not turn in to classes at all ? So unfair~

Wall-E

Everyone had been bragging about Wall-E and I really want to know what is so special with it. At last I get to watch it with dear. Surprisingly, I thought I will be amazed, but actually I did not. Another surprise is where dear did not complaint that the movie is not boring. Maybe there are too many robots inside the movie. That is what makes him attracted to it. I don't know why I don't feel the movie is so special like what others had said. I thought it was a very great love story, but I don't feel heart warming at all. Maybe it's because of my mood at that time. I was very disappointed that dear going to leave me so soon, and I could not picture myself in the movie. Too high of expectations, I guess. T_T

So Depressed

I will start my work tomorrow. I swear I will.

I will sit down quietly and do my things.

When the day ends, I must have some accomplishment.

I know I will. Good luck!

2 days in Times Square - Day 1

Day 1

After me and dear bought our bus tickets for the Raya week, we went to Times Square for a walk. He said that he will let me to shop till 5 p.m. that day (it was just 1 p.m. when we reached) and I said deal. So, when we were walking around the shopping mall with no aim, he said its a waste of time, and let's go home. I rejected and continue walking and window shopping (and obviously he regretted what he said earlier. Haha) Then, we passed by a shop where they are having big sales, and I managed to grab one shirt for him, and forced him to buy it even though he doesn't want to. I know he was boring, so I brought him to his favourite restautant...ta da! KFC, to have our lunch, as usual we order the same set of meal (boringggggg..as I don't fancy KFC that much). After the lunch, we passed by Esarli, the shoe shop, and he make one sound and pull me away from the vision of the shop. Anyway, usually I will ignore him and enter the shop. And..ta da! I bought another pair of sandals! The only thing he did is shake his head non-stop. When we passed by the earlier clothes shop again, I found another shirt for him! Due to my persuation, I managed to make him buy again.
I felt boring, because he is the one who get to buy all the shirts, so I go and choose some for myself. After all the rummaged, I managed to get one blouse and one nice shorts for myself. And ta da! I bought it within half an hour. The only thing that he said was "I don't know why girls likes and can buy things without thinking". Pleaaseeee..he is the one who think too much everytime he bought something. We went to Secret Recipe for a tea break, where I ordered my favourite Chocolate Strawberry cake. Yummy!

My favourite Chocolate Strawberry

We went to Sg Wang again for a walk, and headed back to Times Square for a dinner. We visited Food and Tea again, and decided to ordered some food we haven't tried before. Seems like we made the wrong decision to do so T__T

Teng Zai porridge
(the only eat-able thing)

Rice with Minced Beef and Egg
(It look nice, but taste..ehem. Basically they used spaghetti sauce and cooked it with the minced beef and pour it all over the rice)

I forgot what this called. It is a tong sui with red bean barley with milk
(What a "great" combination)

He complaint throughout the session, about the food, the drink, bla..bla..bla..and I swear I won't let him step into this restaurant anymore

It's One Month Old!

I remember I still have one post sitting in the draft box waiting for me to post it. Well, I will get back to it when I have time ;)

Well, this post is dedicated to my w580i. It's her (t's a HER because its pink in color) 1 month old birthday! Yea! Yea! What I am glad is she is still in a good condition. Hope that this will last long *fingers crossed*

~ the keypads haven crack (touch wood) and break (touch wood)

~ the keys haven dropped out like what I've been told by others *God Bless*

~ it did not shut down suddenly like what others had experienced *Fuh!*

~ the speaker is still in good condition *Thank God*

~ and I just bought a new crystal casing for it (It's the 3rd case in one month! Gosh!)

And, it looks as pretty as when it was new! I know, it is just one month old. But actually I am really really very glad and hope this phone can last me for a long, long, long time :) *fingers crossed) again :p

Duh~Here I am

What am I doing here? Duh~I am suppose to finish up Question 1 for Strategic Management assignment because I need to show Sham (which is a "guru ganti" for that subject, due to some *ehem* problems) next week! Well, all of you all must have been thinking, it is only one question, and why is it so hard for me to finish it. T__T
I wanted to do it!!! But, my conscience (is it spelled like this?) forbids me so. *haha* Well, some conversation during the class freaks us out, I mean, really freaked us out.

Sham : Guys, I had sent your A*** for Less to approve. And I tell you, it is not an easy paper
Us : Huh? Please don't joke la..

Sham : No, I am not joking. I proposed 2 solutions for Less. First, make it as an open book test
Us (at the same time) : No! No! Open book means it's damn hard! We can't afford to waste time! Bla..Bla..Bla..Bla..

Sham : Wait..wait..the second solution is to give you all the questions earlier, and you all find the answers.
Us : Not a bad idea. Give us 3 weeks earlier!

Sham : But, Less rejected the idea.
Us : La..Why???? (all look so disappointed)

Sham : But, he'll read the questions first before he decides. Anyways, I will try my best to help you all. Hey, I got the questions in my laptop now. Why don't I read it some for you all? (all starts taking out pen and papers) Don't bother to copy it, I will give you all the areas to study (all still waiting to copy)

After she read out the question....

Sham : So, the question will be in this kind of format
Us : (speechless + rolled our eyes) But...but...

Sham : Let's discuss this later. We'll see how it goes. Oh, how's your literature review going on?
Us : (rolled our eyes again + looking at each other + giggling)

Sham : You all better start yea. Don't do it last minute.
Us : But, we have so many assignments to complete! We don't know we should start with which one first! (all the same excuses which is given to all the lecturers, which it is true!)

Sham : You still need to do it.
Us : (Shy) Can we extend the date ?

Sham : ....................................................

There goes the exciting lecture in the library discussion room. Actually I still wanna blog about our trip to UPM library, but the blogging mood is not there. *Hmm* So not enthusiastic in blogging. Shame on me for creating this blog T__T

Fun and Tea @ 17/08/08 (Part II)

Hello again! As I had mentioned in the previous blog, this will be the Part II of our (me and aYee) quest in BTS. This post will featured the foods that we ate (It's not expensive food. Mind you). Here are the pictures:

aYee: Welcome to Fun and Tea. Let me intro you to some nice food here

aYee with Honey Lemon Juice. So pretty ;)

Me and my Tong Yun tong sui. Nice ah!!

My Tong Yun tong sui. I miss it so much T_T

OMG! See the filling inside my Tong Yun. Delicious!

ME and aYee (like the lighting so much!)

aYee and her Teng Chai porridge
(got oyster and pork. Nice! Worth trying it!
Anyway, it only cost you 6 bucks)

The porridge. We are too anxious to taste it and
forgot to take a picture when it's just served.
(This is after she mixed everything together)

My Pork Chop with Mee
(I won't order this for second time) T_T

At last, our favorites!!
(Can't get enough from McD's. :P)

That's all for now. Will post in more if I have the chance to go out again :(

Fun and Tea @ 17/08/08 (Part I)

Today is the day when aYee's sister going to take the bus back to Temerloh. So, me and aYee accompany them to Titiwangsa, and after that we took the monorail straight to BTS to "jalan-jalan". I labeled this post as Part I because I just wanted to post what we had bought during the "jalan jalan", and Part II will be about what we had ate. ;) Okay, here goes the list of the things we bought.

Kasugai Wasabi Horse Radish Nuts
We bought this from the Japanese fair just for
my Biu Gor aka aYee's dad ;)

aYee bought this 3 alphabets and make it as necklace.
So pretty..

aYee's earrings

aYee's earrings again :P

This two pairs are mine

A necklace I bought from the Awakening book fair inside BTS

Oh yea..mine :P

A very nice handphone pouch for my "new" handphone

aYee's cute umbrella. So pink-ish and purple-ish

So girl-ish :P

Last but not least, my source of keeping me awake in class.

Well, I know it's not very nice things to show here. But..who cares. Ha! Actually both of us wanna to get a nice pair of sandals, but we can't get any. There are sales, promotions, but the shop tend to hike up the price and put it for 50% discount sales. I still need to pay more than 50 bucks just to get a nice sandal. Forget about it. I better use it on something else (like clothings :P)

Okay, the Part II will come up soon. :)

Hellboy II [The Golden Army]

This is the movie I watch, for like after how many months? I forgotten and I only remembered the last movie I watched was Kungfu Panda (Oh, now I remembered, it's somewhere in mid-June). It's kind of a hard choice for me to choose the movie that we are supposed to watch on that day, because there are too many nice movies available in the cinema.

I wanted to watch Wanted, but they only have one show for it, and we can't make it on that time. There goes the second choice, The Dark Knight. I really want to know is this movie really that good, till everyone is giving full rate to it. But still, they have 3pm and 6 pm, where we can't make it at this time. At last, Hellboy II. I would not say this is my last choice, because I wanted to watch this movie too, as I had watched their first movie. I kind of like the character of this Hellboy (and scared of his friend, Abe, that frog). Finally, I booked the ticket.

The beginning of the show was funny, where Liz and Hellboy were arguing and she was burning everything around her. Then, this disgusting fella name Wind came out, along with Prince Nuada. Wind looks so disgusting till I could not look at him anymore longer. Then the BPRD new boss came, which is a robot with smoke inside it, looks funny. I was waiting for the Golden Army to come out and fight with Hellboy, but seems like they don;t have the chance to fight. Overall it's a good movie, and I don't regret watching it.

What I feel irritated the most is the person behind me keep kicking my seat. Helloooo, don't you know that people will feel irritated if you do it from the beginning of the movie till the movie ends? I don't understand why there is such a stupid people wandering out in this world. I gave him all the reaction I can, and still he is so damn stupid and could not get what I mean and keep doing the same thing. Damn him. Hope he fall down in the middle of the road while he is crossing it (Opps, sorry :P)

Oh, I watched the trailer of The Mummy, The Rising of the Golden Emperor. It is a blast !! I swear no matter what I had to do, I will go and watch that movie. The scene, the people, the place they go, superb! (I hope I won't get cheated by the trailer. Ha Ha Ha)

Happy Birthday to me :)

22nd of July is my birthday. But, why only now I post something about my birth-day things? Because I am so damn busy with my tutorials and projects, till I don't even have time to feed my dog in Facebook. At last, here I am, on a beautiful and free Thursday (I am free not because I don't have work to do, but I am free because I don't have any class tomorrow and I can be lazy today).

I have a few people to thank, where they remembered my birthday, and wishes me. They are:

1) Dear, thank you for the birthday song that you sang to me. You still owe me the Chinese version one :)

2) Nic and Boon, thanks for the surprise cake, as well as the wishing bottle which have a lot of small wishing bottles inside it. The cake is delicious :)

3) Biu Gor/Fai@Fai, thanks for the SLIM and long giraffe doll, and also the birthday card which has birthday song music :)

4) Priya, sorry that I didn't pick up your call (Ha ha ha,you know la). Also thank you for the set of necklace and earrings that you gave me :)

5) Ruby Kok, to be the second one who wishes me, at least you "sek do" ah! My best buddy of all :) By the way, I got a very nice name. Please use that. Thank you.

6) Acga, I am happy that you remember my birthday. Thanks for the wishes :)

7) Bju, you sent a birthday wish message to me early in the morning, and I appreciate it. Like you said, I will appreciate all the good things in my life (which includes you, of course) and also the birthday song that you "sing" to me in words. Don't forget, you still owe me one cake :)

8) Jane, my dear cousin, thanks for the wishes. I don't know that you still remember when is my birthday :)

9) Dad, thank you. For the dinner, and also the birthday wish that you sent me. I miss you :)

10) Ellen, even though you misunderstood that my birthday already pass, but I don't mind. Thanks alot for the wishes :)

11) Mom, when I read your message, I almost fainted in class. Your such a creative birthday song almost make me laugh in front of the lecturer. Anyway, I appreciate it very much :)

12) Jeffrey, many things had happened between us, and even though your birthday message comes a bit late, but still, it is always late than never :)

13) Lewis, I thought Jeffrey will be the last person, can't imagine you are later than him. But the clock haven't strikes 12 yet, so you are not consider late. Thank you :)

14) Kylie, you are officially the last one who send me the birthday message. I know you really forgot when its my birthday. Don't pretend :) Anyway, thanks.

Above are all the sms which my friends sent to me. To those who wishes me when I was in the college, thank you for the wishes.

There are many unhappy things had happened in the college throughout this 2 years. I am happy to those who remember my birthday, to those who had forgotten, I forgive you. Ha ha ha. To those who remembered, but act like you had forgotten, I won't blame you all too. You will have your own path, and I will walk my own path.

These are my thoughts, after I grew 1 year older.

a very ineffecient me~

Why do I said that I am inefficient? Because every time I started a thing, I could not finish it properly. Just like writing a blog. Each time I log in to post something, I will end up leaving it into the draft section (since it is autosave, i normally just close the whole thing). If I have the mood, after few days, I will go search in the draft section, and finish the whole thing that I originally wanted to write. So lazy huh..

Why? Why? Why? Too mush of distraction I guess. Ha Ha Ha. There are sometimes when the moods come, and you quickly want to put everything in words, this is when all kinds of distraction will come into place. MSN-lah, calls-lah, Facebook-lah, Yahoo-lah, all sorts of things! After I finish everything, the mood to continue writing the blog finished. Oh yea, it just happen few minutes ago.
I took almost one hour to just finish writing this 2 paragraph.

Gosh, how can I change this =.="

最后一次

When I was in my grandparents house, Kylie shared a song with me. The song was written by a 17 years old girl to her boyfriend. The girl had passed away, and there are a lot of versions of story on how that girl passed away, but no one knows which one is the truth. Anyways, I found that the lyrics are very touching, and meaningful. Below are the lyrics :

*在我最后一次,闭上眼睛之前, 我想對你說我愛你
在你怀里,舍不得放弃,心里有千万语还没说给你听:}�qE0X,p4PtS
我使劲全力,不想闭上眼睛,这次告别就不能再相遇
+?;|*F2P�S 不能再陪你,当不要忘记你曾经答应我你会好好活下去 (我永远爱你)*
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m2T LJ�PW 想走了~去了好远的地方,不能再陪你看日出等不到天亮_|4p;sdQQ
所有回忆抹去却并不容易,生死由天决定不要太伤心*s3w'X+gC­|3I;o~#C

*repeat

Lovynn, is the girl's name. Originating from Johor (I think so, that's what I got from the forum).
The first version of the story is she had cancer and passed away. She know she is going to die soon, so she wrote this song for her boyfriend.

The second version of the story is she committed suicide, because her mother does not let her to be together with her boyfriend. So she wrote this song, and jumped off from a building.

I still doubt the originality of the story. Because, from the song, you can listen it is a full version, and it does not sound like a demo version with simple music, or without music at all. It sounds like it's recorded in a real studio. How can a simple girl, record a song in a studio and passed away? If the lyrics is written by her, but sang by someone else, then it is acceptable. But everyone was saying she sang it by her own. But according to Kylie's friend, the news of this girl came out in the paper before. Well, I don't know what the news are about, but I still doubt it.

Anyway, I like this song, and go through difficult ways to find it. I got the video in youtube, but could not find the mp3. Luckily, Bju downloaded the video, and convert it to mp3, and send it to me. Now, I am trying to share this song with people that I know. (Of course, to those who are sentimental and know how to enjoy this song)

Back to KL

I am here..back to KL. My orientation going to starts on this coming Wednesday, but I am already here in KL today, Sunday. Why is it so ? Well, here goes the story, and there is another story within the story. Complicated huh ? :D

Okay, 5th of July was the celebration of my grandmother's birthday. So, all of us must go back to Selangor to celebrate her birthday. Everyone means including cousin's boyfriends and girlfriends of course. Well, the hot topic for that day's celebration was will my only eldest cousin brother (Henrry) will bring his NEW girlfriend come As you see I am emphasizing on the word "new" because he had broke up with the previous one after my grandpa urge them to get marry. That was during Chinese New Year, when his mother was telling everyone that he is going to get married within this year. But on April, Christine went and visit the mother and found out another girl was sitting in the living room. The mother admitted that he had broke up with the previous one.

But, on 5th of July, Henrry brought back his EX !!! All of us were shocked, surprised and speechless. I even said that maybe he paid her to come and act in front of all the relatives because he does not want our grandparents knows that he had ditched her. Even Simon says that :P Weird and funny. The next day Christine asked Henrry's sister, May what had actually happened. May said that girl actually purposely break up Henrry and his girlfriend. But after that, Herry realized that he still have feelings for his ex. (Whaaat?) Our first opinion was not what we thought of Henrry but was on that girl (his ex). Why she accepted him again ? If he really love that girl so much, he won't break up with her at the first time! Right ? We felt that girl was really stupid for accepting him again, but maybe this is what you call love is blind.

Then we got the news from Karen that May (yeah, that above mentioned May) is going to get marry on 2009 with Mr. Doraemon (cause he likes Doraemon so much). After May, then will be Henrry, because according to their mother, they must sent out one daughter first before accepting another daughter in law. Actually it should be Karen who got married first because she is the eldest, but she said she is not in rush cause her boyfriend is same age with her. But it is different with the Mr. Doraemon case, because he is like 8 years elder than May (his age is 12 years older than me. Count yourself.) Then, since in one year a family cannot send out more than one daughter, so Karen will get marry on 2010.


Fuh, so many weddings in 2 years time. I think I need to prepare some nice gown to attend the wedding, since I am one of the closest cousin for both Karen, May and Henrry. Hmm..if someone read this, they'll say I am just finding an excuse to go shopping again. Blah. This is what you call girls..you know ??

a letter of apology

Something had been bothering my mind since so long time ago. And what makes me so frustrated is this thing is nothing to do with me! Well, I am talking about my relationship with M. It's tarnished for unknown reasons, and definitely is nothing associated with me. I had kept this myself all this while, thinking maybe I would not lose anything if we continued to be like this. But another part of me wish that we are friends again like previously but at the end I did not do anything to save the friendship. And i regretted for doing so.

I am a kind of person which likes to make things clear, and do not like any hidden meaning in anything. If I am not sure about one thing, I will try every way, shamelessly to get that one particular answer. I regret I did not keep this attitude to our friendship. Maybe I had taken things for granted. I wish that I could turn back time and this will not happen to me.

Finally, I had taken the first step and wrote a letter to her, apologize for everything (I don't even know what am I apologizing for). I just want to clear the grudges between us. I was hoping for a reply from her, but ever since I sent the letter to her, I did not get any reply. Everytime when I got a chance to online, the first thing I do is to check my inbox whether she replied or not. She did not, and I am disappointed day by day.

But surprisingly, I got her reply today. I finally make things clear like water between us. She said we can be normal friends again (I don't know whether the word normal had any hidden meaning or what) but at least it is better than nothing. I did not feel happy, because I sensed that she is still keeping away from me. I did not feel sad either, because I know from now on I do not have to avoid her anymore. I do not know when it comes to real life scene what will happen between us, but I am hoping for the best for us.

I do not know why I am better in expressing my feelings in letters rather than words. At one point of time, I felt childish writing the letter to her, but I changed my mind about the childish thingy, because that is my last resort..

The doctor says..

My mom brought me to see a Chinese doctor recently. This doctor so-call very teror doctor. Can cure all kind of sickness. So my mom brought me to her "ba mak" (using their fingers to feel my pulse on my wrist those kind)
You know what the doctor said:
"Your blood circulation is very slow. This is why you always feel tired and sleepy. Your body could not absorb the nutrients that you digested."
"So, from now on try to sleep before 12 am. This is because from 11 pm to 1 am is the time for your body to absorb all the nutrients. If you sleep after 1 am, you cannot absorb anything and this is why you are always tired"
"I know it's hard for teenagers like you to sleep early. But just try as much as you can."

Duh~~I need to sleep early since then. I feel like I wasted a lot of time because I sleep so early. I dunno whether I can continue to sleep early even during assignments and exams time.

Duh~~Duh~~Duh~~

Wish me luck =.="

The Memorable Genting trip -2-

Other than sitting there sulking, I better upload the next part of the photos taken in Genting

-Me @ First World Hotel Lobby-

-Us @ First World decorations-


-Us@Eye of Genting- ^^

-picture taken by Gary Tan-

Well, actually there are alot more picture but I feel it is irrelevant, so might as well do not post it here..
End of says, even though the theme park is a bit packed with tourists, overall it's an enjoying trip. I feel that we wasted alot of time in the theme park lining up. If we had not played in the theme park, I guess we have plenty of time to walk around and enjoy our time.
Well, I am quite bad luck too. Had a mild food poisoning after having dinner at the food court. I vomited and feel dizzy all the way. Even though Gary brought us to a spot where we can see such a beautiful scenery of KL, I can't even enjoy it because I feel nausea at that time.
What a waste. Hope in the next trip I won't have this kind of situation again.

So no mood

This is currently what I am feeling right now..

(sweetpeapod, wordpress)

I dunno what I want..
I dunno what I am thinking..
I dunno what to do..
Life seems meaningless to me..
Frustration, irritation, confusion is what I have in my mind now.
So, who is there to save me?

The Memorable Genting trip -1-

So, what is so special with Genting till I put it as a memorable trip ?
It's memorable because I went with a special person, my dear ^^
This is our very first trip, and I am looking forward to it very very much. And so happen the date is very near to our 2nd anniversary, so we make it as an anniversary trip.
The date has come. 12th of June is the day we will start our journey ! Well, I'll save the story of telling how we went, and I am just going to post some pictures here.

in the bus going to Genting

-dear@double decker bus-
(before going to skyway)

-yanyan@Double Decker bus-
-Us @ Skyway--Us@Theme Park-
Guess where were we?
-Us@Fei Long (first row)-We wanna see the First World view-
-Us@The Waterfall-

Well, this is the Part 1, because I do not want to upload too many pictures in one post. So, for the night time pictures will be at the next post ^^
I'll be right there ! xD

Dear Diary..

Dear Diary,

Today, I learn a new thing which is when people already get used to something; they tend to forget the existence of it and also tend to forget what is the real meaning behind it. People are too used being surrounded by so many things, new ones and also old ones. When there are too many, the old ones will slowly be left behind and forgotten. But when certain flashbacks comes by, it reminded them the good old days with the old ones and they will start searching for the old ones again.

Why just can’t they keep both the new ones and old ones together? People is always blinded by new things. The old ones? Nah.. they will eventually disappear from the memory.

Cancer-ians are always full of passion. Like me, I am always sensitive with my surroundings. But people around me are not. I always tend to get frustrated because they had forgotten this and that. I guess I just have to learn to mind my own business rather than the others. They won’t care tho’.

The Ads

Hmm..it's time to get some ads in my blog tho'..
Anyway who is gonna surf this blog other than me ?
LOL
Somehow I change my blog's layout..
Kinda bored with the previous one..

My cJ7

Last month, dear gave me a surprise by giving me a CJ7. I actually mentioned before I wanted one, then he really bought one for me! Of course I am happy, but since my housemate has one too, so I did not want to keep it in KL, cause I don't want people to say that I follow her. Anyways, this is the snapshot of my 7 zai ^^

me and my 7 zai

my 7 zai

hamsap version of my 7 zai xD

I really want to thank dear for giving me such a cute gift. Now, 7 zai is on my bed, and sleeping with me everyday.

The Weather

The weather in KL nowadays are very very bad.
Lightning, thunder, rain, all come together. Everyday.
I kind of get used to the timing of the rain. It will only rain in the evening around 4 pm. So, those who are clever would not choose to go out around that time. Like me :P

The sign

The heavy rain

It's actually a golf course, but can't see anything now

It is so damn blur

After the rain, can see the beautiful dawn colour

Now you can see the green scenery of golf course

The reddish sky color. So beautiful

I never thought that I can snap such a nice picture (ignore the quality) with just using my handphone which do not have any mega pixels thingy at all. Ha ! The coming pictures are the one I took on the way back to Temerloh by bus.

The heavy rain (cannot see the mountain)

It is still in KL (the highway)

See the thick fog (after the rains stops)

See the blue blue sky

I just like the blue-ish color of the sky

Okay, there goes my weather forecast. Hope the weather would not be so extreme when I am back to KL in July. Anyways the weather in Temerloh is also extreme. Extremely HOT! Plus the constantly of no supply of current, I can become crazy.