a letter of apology

Something had been bothering my mind since so long time ago. And what makes me so frustrated is this thing is nothing to do with me! Well, I am talking about my relationship with M. It's tarnished for unknown reasons, and definitely is nothing associated with me. I had kept this myself all this while, thinking maybe I would not lose anything if we continued to be like this. But another part of me wish that we are friends again like previously but at the end I did not do anything to save the friendship. And i regretted for doing so.

I am a kind of person which likes to make things clear, and do not like any hidden meaning in anything. If I am not sure about one thing, I will try every way, shamelessly to get that one particular answer. I regret I did not keep this attitude to our friendship. Maybe I had taken things for granted. I wish that I could turn back time and this will not happen to me.

Finally, I had taken the first step and wrote a letter to her, apologize for everything (I don't even know what am I apologizing for). I just want to clear the grudges between us. I was hoping for a reply from her, but ever since I sent the letter to her, I did not get any reply. Everytime when I got a chance to online, the first thing I do is to check my inbox whether she replied or not. She did not, and I am disappointed day by day.

But surprisingly, I got her reply today. I finally make things clear like water between us. She said we can be normal friends again (I don't know whether the word normal had any hidden meaning or what) but at least it is better than nothing. I did not feel happy, because I sensed that she is still keeping away from me. I did not feel sad either, because I know from now on I do not have to avoid her anymore. I do not know when it comes to real life scene what will happen between us, but I am hoping for the best for us.

I do not know why I am better in expressing my feelings in letters rather than words. At one point of time, I felt childish writing the letter to her, but I changed my mind about the childish thingy, because that is my last resort..

The doctor says..

My mom brought me to see a Chinese doctor recently. This doctor so-call very teror doctor. Can cure all kind of sickness. So my mom brought me to her "ba mak" (using their fingers to feel my pulse on my wrist those kind)
You know what the doctor said:
"Your blood circulation is very slow. This is why you always feel tired and sleepy. Your body could not absorb the nutrients that you digested."
"So, from now on try to sleep before 12 am. This is because from 11 pm to 1 am is the time for your body to absorb all the nutrients. If you sleep after 1 am, you cannot absorb anything and this is why you are always tired"
"I know it's hard for teenagers like you to sleep early. But just try as much as you can."

Duh~~I need to sleep early since then. I feel like I wasted a lot of time because I sleep so early. I dunno whether I can continue to sleep early even during assignments and exams time.

Duh~~Duh~~Duh~~

Wish me luck =.="

The Memorable Genting trip -2-

Other than sitting there sulking, I better upload the next part of the photos taken in Genting

-Me @ First World Hotel Lobby-

-Us @ First World decorations-


-Us@Eye of Genting- ^^

-picture taken by Gary Tan-

Well, actually there are alot more picture but I feel it is irrelevant, so might as well do not post it here..
End of says, even though the theme park is a bit packed with tourists, overall it's an enjoying trip. I feel that we wasted alot of time in the theme park lining up. If we had not played in the theme park, I guess we have plenty of time to walk around and enjoy our time.
Well, I am quite bad luck too. Had a mild food poisoning after having dinner at the food court. I vomited and feel dizzy all the way. Even though Gary brought us to a spot where we can see such a beautiful scenery of KL, I can't even enjoy it because I feel nausea at that time.
What a waste. Hope in the next trip I won't have this kind of situation again.

So no mood

This is currently what I am feeling right now..

(sweetpeapod, wordpress)

I dunno what I want..
I dunno what I am thinking..
I dunno what to do..
Life seems meaningless to me..
Frustration, irritation, confusion is what I have in my mind now.
So, who is there to save me?

The Memorable Genting trip -1-

So, what is so special with Genting till I put it as a memorable trip ?
It's memorable because I went with a special person, my dear ^^
This is our very first trip, and I am looking forward to it very very much. And so happen the date is very near to our 2nd anniversary, so we make it as an anniversary trip.
The date has come. 12th of June is the day we will start our journey ! Well, I'll save the story of telling how we went, and I am just going to post some pictures here.

in the bus going to Genting

-dear@double decker bus-
(before going to skyway)

-yanyan@Double Decker bus-
-Us @ Skyway--Us@Theme Park-
Guess where were we?
-Us@Fei Long (first row)-We wanna see the First World view-
-Us@The Waterfall-

Well, this is the Part 1, because I do not want to upload too many pictures in one post. So, for the night time pictures will be at the next post ^^
I'll be right there ! xD

Dear Diary..

Dear Diary,

Today, I learn a new thing which is when people already get used to something; they tend to forget the existence of it and also tend to forget what is the real meaning behind it. People are too used being surrounded by so many things, new ones and also old ones. When there are too many, the old ones will slowly be left behind and forgotten. But when certain flashbacks comes by, it reminded them the good old days with the old ones and they will start searching for the old ones again.

Why just can’t they keep both the new ones and old ones together? People is always blinded by new things. The old ones? Nah.. they will eventually disappear from the memory.

Cancer-ians are always full of passion. Like me, I am always sensitive with my surroundings. But people around me are not. I always tend to get frustrated because they had forgotten this and that. I guess I just have to learn to mind my own business rather than the others. They won’t care tho’.

The Ads

Hmm..it's time to get some ads in my blog tho'..
Anyway who is gonna surf this blog other than me ?
LOL
Somehow I change my blog's layout..
Kinda bored with the previous one..