Clashing Dates

I am very frustrated.

I am very Frustrated.

I am very FRUSTRATED !!!!!!!!!!


All my datelines are clashing like nobody's business! Stress stress stress. wtf.

On Week 3 I just realized that we need to submit our individual assignment on Week 6. wtf. 3 more weeks to go. Then when I checked back the unit plan I just realized that we need to submit the case study for approval on Week 4. Another wtf. Then my dad told me that we need to back Sekinchan to celebrate my grandma's birthday, on my Week 6. Yes!! Right on my submission day. And now I have to think about other alternatives, such as finishing my assignment on Week 5, which means I have only 2 weeks to go. GREAT!

Then, my cousin's wedding. It falls right a day before my exam. WOW!

So far I just found out that two datelines are clashing. I hope I won't be able to find another date. God bless.

Our 4th Anniversary

It's our 4th anniversary today, 16/06/2010. Not wedding anniversary, just an anniversary that marks the time that we had been together. 4 years, not long not short. I never really feel the time pass by, as we gone through most of the days without each other by our side. Day by day, month and month, and here we are, on the 4th year of our relationship.

It's really funny to see how things happen. From a stranger to friend, from a friend to a best friend who talks about anything and everything, and from best friend become lover. Isn't it the normal route that a relationship takes to blossom? One can't be skipping the first stage (the friend stage) and straight become lovers where even love at first sight also needs to start with friends. My point is not how my relationship began, but is the direction it is taking in the future.

At the age of 24, some had become mothers, some are engaged, and some are still single. I can conclude that I am in the middle of these stages, nor single yet nor engage. Hence the main question comes into mind. Am I going to marry this guy that I had dated for 4 years? If I am not going to marry him, why must I use the remaining time of my life to be with him (not that I am going to die lah), yet if I am really going to marry him, when is that? Seriously, I really never had thought about these questions but people around me had already been asking. Why?? Why must it be so soon to get marry? I still regard myself as a young teenager!!

Being in the environment where everyone is elder than you gives me certain pressure (I'm talking about my MBA class). Being in the environment where all of your cousins around your age are getting married gives me pressure as well. Everyone had been asking, when is your turn? Wah, I have never really thought of that at all. The timing is not there yet, as both of us are still studying. I feel kinda old by typing that I am still studying at this age.

So, what does our future holds? It's still a mystery for both of us. Yes, he told me that he wanted to marry me. In my opinion, marriage does not just come in words like "I am definitely going to marry you in the future" but it needs certain action like "I am now saving for our future. Let's get married when we had enough money". Man, I feel so old typing this. Since when I had been thinking about this?

By all means, I still feel glad that we are still holding up together. I have been so accustomed to you that I don't know what will happen if you are not by my side anymore.

Thank you for keeping up with my temper,
Thank you for being the dearest part of my life,
Thank you for being there when I always wanted you to,
Thank you for cheering me up when I am not in the mood,
Thank you for holding us together when we almost fall apart,

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Thank you for loving me so much like you do now.

Happy 4th anniversary dear, may there are more anniversaries to come in the future!

Love you to the bits! Muah! <3

Lots of luv,

...BiBi...

Books

I like to read. I used to borrow lots and lots of books from my friend Esha during the holidays, because I don’t have any chance to buy any novels in my hometown. But ever since I moved to KL, I had the chance to visit bookstores in shopping malls and I started to buy my own books. Throughout the years, I had bought too many books till the cupboard had not enough spaces to accommodate all of them anymore. I was thinking of selling it at half prices, because I won’t be reading it for the second time but my sister wanted to keep them all because she wants to fill in the bookshelf in our new house.

I am too free, and had nothing in mind what to post, so in this post I’m going to list out the books that I have (on the other hand I also can make a total of the books I owned).

(Name of the book – Author)
1. Fury - G. M. Ford
2. Black River – G.M. Ford
3. Marker – Robin Cook
4. The Best Laid Plans – Sidney Sheldon
5. Blind Side – Catherine Coulter
6. When the Wind Blows – James Patterson
7. Honeymoon – James Patterson & Howard Roughan
8. The Last Bride – Sandra Landry
9. The Wrong Wife – Carolyn McSparren
10. Buzz Cut – James Hall
11. The Insider – Stephen Frey
12. Ricochet – Sandra Brown
13. Love Lies – Adele Parks
14. Rough Ride – John Francome
15. In the Manor with Millionaire & The Lawman’s Secret Son (2 in 1)
16. The Burning Girl – Mark Billingham
17. Embers – Helen Kirkman
18. Passion – Louis Bagshawe
19. Someone to Watch Over Me – Judith McNaught
20. Twilight – Stephenie Meyer
21. New Moon – Stephenie Meyer
22. The Girl with the Dragon Tatoo – Stieg Larsson
23. The Girl who Play with Fire – Stieg Larsson
24. The Girl who Kicked the Hornets’ Nest – Stieg Larsson
25. The Memory Keeper’s Daughter
26. The Hornet’s Nest – Patricia Cornwell

That’s roughly all the books I owned. I also have read:

1. Harry Potter’s series – JK Rowling
2. Eclipse and Breaking Dawn (e-book) – Stephenie Meyer

There are more, but the books are stuck in KL. Will update this post when I can get hold of the books.

p/s: I think I can earn some money by selling off my books. Anyone interested?