done with FYP but is still busy with assignments

I don't know why every time I was copying some things from the Word document, I can't publish my blog. It says something wrong with my HTML template. Grrr..what the heck is HTML template also I don't know. Jargons. Hate jargons. Hence, I need to type everything from beginning till the end. Again. Then, I am lazy, so I give up in publishing it. There goes another post which can't see the sun. Blueek!

I am actually doing my assignment now but I felt damn bored so thought of blogging something which I had done just now. I was trying all sorts of dresses (I don't have many tho') which I could wear to an annual dinner end of this month. I can't find anything which I like. Need to re-furnish my closets? Good idea :) I always think so too

I look fat in this black dress T_T

I wore this for too many times already!!!

Somehow I feel this looks like night gown more than a dress.

And it's too short, and too low cut.
It don't look nice with a black tube inside.

Those are the best 3 dresses which I had picked up! And I am not satisfied with all 3 of it. Argh! Shopping! Shopping! Shopping! I want shopping!

p/s: oh yea, and I haven't gotten the bags and sandals to match with those dresses. Another reason for me to go shopping right? wuahahaahhah~

I'm Gonna Miss You Much

I stole this from Rebekah's blog :

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore can

Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you....


Love was made for me and you....

Oh, I miss my BF so much. When will I get the chance to see him again. Thanks to Reb's sad Korean OST videos. Feel like dumping everything and be with him all the time. Can I? I wish I could. Darn those assignments and study weeks and exams. Hate you all!!!!!

Oh, I will posting Kit's birthday celebration in Secret Recipe, outings for the past few weeks plus movies soon enough..soon...I hope it's real soon..hahaha...

a boring day

When you got fed-up with one thing, you will get fed-up with everything else surrounding you. That is what happen to me today. Yesterday's post was about waiting for miracle to happen and it does not happen. So, it affect my mood today - the whole day. I was being so useless wandering around the house and doing nothing productive. Useless me. Hah!

Thus, being so un-productive, I went and checked my mail box. Thank God someone did send some interesting stuff for me to check it out. I particularly attracted to one mail, where it describes my characteristics when I am in love according to my day of birth. Quite accurate though!

I am type number 4 where:
4 号恋人：每月4 日、13 日、 22 日、31 日出生者
对4号恋人来说，安全感永远是第一考量，不过，第二、第三、第四考量恐怕还是安全感。
I need security in my relationship. Badly.

4号恋人对爱情的观念很传统，会以相当认真的态度去面对和经营爱情。
Have very conservative view in love. Will be very serious while in love. (So true for me.)

要4 号恋人主动出击…嘿嘿，他们可不轻易打没有把握的仗；不过，当有人对 4号恋人主动表示好感的时候， 4号恋人往往会以最快的速度跳入陷阱。
We won't go for it if we are not sure with the results. But, when someone does a confession, we normally will fall for it, immediately. That's how each of my relationship started. (Isn't it so true?)

只不过，4 号恋人还是很坚持原则的，再怎么爱、再怎么盲目，若对方不能达到4 号恋人最基本的要求——也就是对方不能独属你一人时，4号恋人最终还是会从短暂的盲目中清醒，脱离这段没有结果的关系。
Even we fall into a relationship easily, we still stick to our principles. No matter how deep in love are we, if our partners could not fulfill our requirements, where they just can't belong to us, alone, we will be awake, and end this never-ending relationship. (Personally, I felt the same, but I still could not have the courage to do so. Why?)

4 号恋人特别需要安全感，所以也特别需要了解和掌握恋人的一切。
We need the feeling of security badly. So, we need to know everything, in and out of our partner. (Ya, I demand to know everything. No matter you're willing to tell me or not.)

4号恋人一向是看准了、了解了、做好准备了…才会付出行动；因此， 4号恋人的对象往往是从身边的朋友下手，从一般的关系开始萌生爱情的嫩芽。
We will always aim our target correctly before taking any action. Thus, we will always pick someone who is near to use, like friends, and start our relationship from there. (Why I feel that this post is describing about me?)

失恋症结点： 小心你的主观意识太强，时时要以你的意见为优先，伴侣可是会受不了的！
Most probably break up because of: too self-centered and does not accepts others opinion, and the partner could not withstand it. (I admit that I always want the other one listen to me,but I am not wrong either!)

你是哪种 4号恋人? (You are which one?)
每月4 日出生的4号恋人： 最理想的贤妻良母、好丈夫类型，生活的细节靠他准不会出错。
每月13日出生的4号恋人： 13日的恋人很讨厌落单，偏偏他们也真有本事，就是让你心甘情愿跟他东奔西走的。
每月22日出生的4号恋人： 直觉既强又准的恋人，对于他们的原则，你还是跟着照办为妙吧！
(I am born on 22nd so I will just explain this one =P)
I have very good and accurate instinct, why don't just follow my rules in everything? Well said!
每月31日出生的4号恋人： 外表规矩、内心狂放，表里落差最大的恋人，越深入了解越有挑战性！

王力宏 - 心跳

想跟我吵架 我没那么无聊
不懂得道歉 我没那么聪明
好想要回到我们的塬点
　
你又在哭泣 我给不了安慰
我又在摇头 有那么点后悔
爱情的发展已难以回头却无法往前走

但身不由己出现在胸口
两颗心能塞几个问号
爱让我们流多少眼泪

你的眼神充满美丽带走我的心跳 　
你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳
逆转时光到一开始 能不能给一秒
等着哪一天你也想起
那悬在记忆中的美好

想跟我吵架 我没那么无聊
不懂得道歉 我没那么聪明
好想要回到我们的塬点
　
但身不由己出现在胸口
两颗心能塞几个问号
爱让我们流多少眼泪

你的眼神充满美丽带走我的心跳 　
你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳
逆转时光到一开始 能不能给一秒
等着哪一天你也想起
那悬在记忆中的美好

你的眼神充满美丽带走我的心跳 　
你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳
逆转时光到一开始 能不能给一秒
等着哪一天你也想起
那悬在记忆中的美好

**Lee Hom's new song..hearts it..**

the bad day

I don't know whether today is considered as a bad day for me or not. Remember my previous post, talking about how bad is GSC? I actually made a mistake myself, where I did not activate the secure code for my card (I get to know this after I called the call center). So, I activate it, but still I could not book the movie ticket. I called them again. Skip the long story, after I called them for like 3 times, they started to ignore my call. Well, at the end I manage to get them to send a new password for me to activate it again, but not today of course.

I actually hoping that miracle will happen today. But one call turns everything to be so-not-miracle at all. Spoilt my mood, spoilt my feeling, spoilt everything. I always thought I am the onw who should be on top, compared to others, but obviously I am not. Guess I should just bear with it, or just let go.

I feel bad, for thinking about letting go, for such small things. But, think deeply, if small things can cause uncertains and dissatisfaction, what will happen if it is a big thing? I could not imagine what will happen, what will I feel, what will others feel, what will be the consequences.

I actually have gone through worst, maybe not that worst. I had started to think whether I am having depression or what. Maybe a minor one. I actually wished I have. At least I know that I am abnormal by making my bed become a sea-taste bed. I actually cried every night, without knowing the reason knowing why. Tears are flowing, but the mind is blank. But what I am sure is everything when he appears, I can't even control myself. Maybe I am already in the verge of exploding, or dropping into depression.

Now I can even play my handphone games while I am crying. I had reach the point where I can cry and do things at the same time. Went to have pizza with housemates and James today. I had been yawning ever since in the class in the evening. But, now, almost 2 am, I am still typing this blog. I wanted to sleep so much. I am so sleepy. Still, I don't want to sleep. Because, I know, I wont't drift to sleep easily. Everything will come into my mind, and I will start the depression thingy again.

I just hope that I would not have to face so many things in my life, because both my mind and my heart can't take it anymore.